I think we all have an image, we want to stick our best selves forward not let people see our dirt. I know I do that. I'm not the person who wants to be open about the things that aren't perfect in my life. Sometimes my dirt has been aired out by others and I've been humiliated so I get really protective of the "image" I desire to cultivate.
See, clearly I think people should only see that my life is totally happy, I always have enough money, and my marriage is perfect without fights! HA! I feel in the interest of being private, that I shouldn't publicly discuss my struggles- and to a point- that's true. However there comes a point when it's less about being private and more worrying about peoples perception.
Yes, I consider myself pretty blessed and yes I love my family and am devoted to them. That doesn't mean there are never ugly moments. I adore my husband and think the sun shines out his butt- but our marriage isn't perfect. I love my children and I think they are enormous gifts and I delight in them. They also at times make me want to pull my hair out and crawl in a hole where little demanding beings don't need: "MOM!!!!"
In the interest of still remaining private but also being real- my life is not always this happy go lucky deal. While the people that know me well certainly know my struggles but I think my ego gets too caught up in the idea of "image" and my ego should take a step back.
See, lessons in humility really suck and I'm trying to head fate off at the pass here before my pride needs to take a hard knock. Life is never a smooth course, sometimes the waves are choppy and you have to adjust your sails. I think the nature and design of social media, we get easily caught up in "keeping up with..." our peers and trying to insight the envy of others. It's easy to get caught into that, but the reality is- every single person goes through the choppy waves. We all have the ugly and the gritty and the difficult moments. We survive those time and thrive to become better people.
So, here's to truth. My ego wants to say that my life is grand. Reality is that it's a work in progress. I'm a work in progress; and even as I work little by little- it will always be a work in progress. That's okay too!
See, clearly I think people should only see that my life is totally happy, I always have enough money, and my marriage is perfect without fights! HA! I feel in the interest of being private, that I shouldn't publicly discuss my struggles- and to a point- that's true. However there comes a point when it's less about being private and more worrying about peoples perception.
Yes, I consider myself pretty blessed and yes I love my family and am devoted to them. That doesn't mean there are never ugly moments. I adore my husband and think the sun shines out his butt- but our marriage isn't perfect. I love my children and I think they are enormous gifts and I delight in them. They also at times make me want to pull my hair out and crawl in a hole where little demanding beings don't need: "MOM!!!!"
In the interest of still remaining private but also being real- my life is not always this happy go lucky deal. While the people that know me well certainly know my struggles but I think my ego gets too caught up in the idea of "image" and my ego should take a step back.
See, lessons in humility really suck and I'm trying to head fate off at the pass here before my pride needs to take a hard knock. Life is never a smooth course, sometimes the waves are choppy and you have to adjust your sails. I think the nature and design of social media, we get easily caught up in "keeping up with..." our peers and trying to insight the envy of others. It's easy to get caught into that, but the reality is- every single person goes through the choppy waves. We all have the ugly and the gritty and the difficult moments. We survive those time and thrive to become better people.
So, here's to truth. My ego wants to say that my life is grand. Reality is that it's a work in progress. I'm a work in progress; and even as I work little by little- it will always be a work in progress. That's okay too!