As a parent, there are a thousands of choices we make for our children. Everyone wants to be right so those individual choices become a big deal. From the way we feed our babies and onward. I got really bogged down in these choices and the “rightness” of them. How I have changed is that while yes, that does matter to me; I care more the bigger picture of raising my kids. That’s my personality though, I get very bogged in the details and yes they are important but it can become easy to miss the forest for all of the trees.
Physically healthy, emotionally healthy, and spiritually healthy beings. That’s my goal. I can set out of their lives, as much as I’d like too. My Father had this very specific plan for my life, I didn’t do that. A lot of that ended up backfiring really bad. I believe in structure but I believe it should be bendable.
Motherhood changes you, or it should. It really should. I’m glad it’s changing me. I’m becoming more rigid in important ways and more flexible too. My hope is to rise to the occasion of being the best parent I can be. Not going by the standard of anyone else, not to be perfect, but to be the best I personally can be. It sounds simple, isn’t it everyone’s goal? Well, sometimes I’m my own worst enemy. So it’s that continued growth that will help me in this. Life is a good albeit sometimes hard teacher.
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