Today though, I had a peace. A deep breath of "it's okay". This has been a rough two weeks. I haven't talked about all of it because somethings are too personal for me to just put up on the internet. Then, we all got sick and bills are calling, and life hits hard when you're down. We made it, everything is okay, but it has been rough. It felt like I was trying to get my sea legs in a storm; all wobbly and unbalanced.
Today though, I had a peace. I was able to start loving myself- the way I always needed- in the middle of ear infections, pink eye, my husband job transitioning, bills coming up, my body going against me, stress that felt like a mountain. I love me. I know this loving myself thing is going to be an uphill battle. There are days I won't like Hannah. I'm hard on myself so that self criticism comes naturally.
I'm okay though. I have the strength to bear it. I can rely on God to help me through what I can't. I have a husband and friends and family to help me as well. I feel settled. It's a good feeling.
Now, excuse me- I have two sick kids who are at my heels.
Love and Light All!