I'm in a bummed mood. Today I found out I have gestational diabetes. Which, I know can be controlled with diet and exercise and doesn't have to be a big deal. I know that. However, it brings up some personal issues with me. So I'm kind of upset about it.
Honestly, quitting smoking was not that difficult. I get struck by the occasional craving but it wasn't a hard battle. I think a dietary adjustment may actually be somewhat harder for me. I'm not unfamiliar with the dietary restrictions, my Father has had diabetes most of my life. I've watched that battle and while the diabetes he has is different and affects him differently, certain things are the same. Compounded with my current health problems, it certainly makes this pregnancy harder.
I thankfully have gained very little weight this pregnancy, however sadly did not lose the baby weight I had gained with J. I'm resolved that I can do this, but I can't lie and say that it doesn't worry me and it really does bring up emotional issues. Couple that with pregnancy hormones and the tears are somewhat inevitable.
I am incredibly blessed with one heckofa husband. He immediately committed to doing the diet with me, exercising with me, and was there with so many hugs when I got upset reading about the risks to our daughter. Above all I want a healthy baby, so any restrictions I need to follow I will. Hopefully they will be temporary but I will do what I can to stay healthy.
More updates soon! Thanks all!