When Elena took her first steps?
Today as Kai danced me around the living room.
I steal glances at your picture.
It's in a few places around.
You're everywhere though.
Your coffee mug.
Your blankets.
A thousand little items.
Did you look?
The moment she was born?
Night time cuddles?
When I tell the kids about you.
Can you peek?
Did you see Kail's first day of school?
You're in all the places left behind.
You're in all these moments of love.
You're inside my daughter's big blue eyes.
Can you peek?
Does Heaven give leave?
Are you allowed to see?
Do you see when these tired eyes still cry missing you?
Can you watch them grow?
When you're so far away.
Did you look?
I need you to peek.
I didn't expect you to miss this.
I pray you can look with heaven's eyes.
My son looks at your pictures.
You're the presence all around.
So that you never truly leave.
I need you to peek.
I need you to see those moments.
I have to believe in that.
I have to believe that I can carry you with me.
That now, there's nothing you have to miss.
I need you to peek.
I don't want to disappoint you.
I want to make you proud.
I wanted you to see the beautiful lives that came after.
That because of you are going to be great.
My heart still aches.
Maybe not every single day.
So, I need you peek. Okay.
In the author on my face
Cause you know you left a hollow
Where your body cut an alcove
Did I show you love
'Cause the silence never stayed
It's a breach I'll never cover"