Those first screaming cries
My heart explodes.
What kind of Mother will I be?
Time passes
Little feet dance my hallways
Running through my heart
What kind of Mother will I be?
I wanted to be your superhero
Your confidant
You're cheerleader and wiper of tears
What kind of Mother will I be?
Every day you teach me
You tell me and you see me
Every day you're in my mind
What kind of Mother will I be?
You made me your Mother
Your Step-Mother
Your helper
You made me your care-giver
Your secret keeper
Your friend
You made me your zoom zoom
Your choo choo spotter
and Lego maker
You made me your mess cleaner
Your face wiper
and clothes washer
You made me your time outs
You made me your "no mores"
You made me your Mother
Motherhood has defined a huge part of my life. I wouldn't be the person I am without my children. Kail is my soft heart, my sweet cuddle bug, my questioner. Josh is my bouncy non-stop mover, discovering, learning, and whispering his secrets to Mommy. Elena is my song, she's my blue eyed dream girl, my beautiful baby, my heart.
I can't be a perfect Mom and I will never be all that they need. I am just this person, trying continually to raise them, teach them, and love them. To grow with them and live in the privilege of their childhoods.
Some days are hard days. The messes are big, the cries are strong, the feelings are huge, and I feel spent. The little kisses and little fit are making me crazy. This is life. Without a doubt, my children make my life bigger and better than I though possible. It's also harder and more complicated as well. I still don't know what kind of Mother I am, but I know that I will always try to do my best by them. I will fail, I will miss the mark, but I will never not be their Mother.
I had excellent Mothers. My Mother was wonderful and my God Mom was wonderful too. They taught me so much about what it means to be a parent to love children, to raise them well, and watch them grow. This Mother's Day I am blessed with three children. Three amazing little people who fill my days with laughter, tears, joy, frustration, and moments I will hold dear.
Motherhood is in the trenches, it's not easy, some days I think "can I do this?" but no matter what these kids make my life. They me help me find the joy that I never knew possible. My house may not be as clean as I'd like it, my walls might have crayon, my hair might be greying, but my life is filled with incomparable love. I wouldn't trade it.
A loving Mother- that's what kind of Mother I'll be.
Much love. Happy Mother's Day All!